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Conversation of St. Seraphim of Sarov with Nicholas Motovilov
A Wonderful Revelation to the World
Introduction
This revelation is undoubtedly of world-wide significance.
True, there is nothing essentially new in it, for the full revelation
was given to the Apostles from the very day of Pentecost. But
now that people have forgotten the fundamental truths of the Christian
religion, and are immersed in the darkness of materialism or the
exterior and routine performance of "ascetic labours,"
Father Seraphim's revelation is truly extraordinary, as indeed
he himself regarded it.
"It is not given to you alone to understand
this," said Father Seraphim at the end of the revelation,
"but through you it is for the whole world!"
Like a flash of lightning this wonderful conversation
illumined the whole world which was already immersed in spiritual
lethargy and death, less than a century before the struggle against
Christianity in Russia and at a time when Christian faith was
at a low ebb in the West.
Here God's Saint appears before us as in no way
inferior to the great prophets through whom the Holy Spirit Himself
spoke.
We record everything word for word without any
interpretations of our own.
Conversation of St. Seraphim with N. A. Motovilov
It was Thursday. The day was gloomy. The snow lay eight inches
deep on the ground; and dry, crisp snowflakes were falling thickly
from the sky when Father Seraphim began his conversation with
me in a field adjoining his near hermitage, opposite the River
Sarovka, at the foot of the hill which slopes down to the river
bank. He sat me on the stump of a tree which he had just felled,
and he himself squatted opposite me.
"The Lord has revealed to me," said the great Elder,
"that in your childhood you had a great desire to know the
aim of our Christian life, and that you continually asked many
great spiritual persons about it."
I must say here that from the age of twelve this thought had
constantly troubled me. I had, in fact, approached many clergy
about it; but their answers had not satisfied me. This was not
known to the Elder.
"But no one," continued Father Seraphim, "has
given you a precise answer. They have said to you: 'Go to Church,
pray to God, do the commandments of God, do goodthat is
the aim of the Christian life.' Some were even indignant with
you for being occupied with profane curiosity and said to you:
'Do not seek things that are beyond you.' But they did not speak
as they should. And now poor Seraphim will explain to you in what
this aim really consists.
"Prayer, fasting, vigil and all other Christian activities,
however good they may be in themselves, do not constitute the
aim of our Christian life, although they serve as the indispensable
means of reaching this end. The true aim of our Christian life
consists in the acquisition of the Holy Spirit of God. As for
fasts, and vigils, and prayer, and almsgiving, and every good
deed done for Christ's sake, they are only means of acquiring
the Holy Spirit of God. But mark, my son, only the good deed done
for Christ's sake brings us the fruits of the Holy Spirit. All
that is not done for Christ's sake, even though it be good, brings
neither reward in the future life nor the grace of God in this.
That is why our Lord Jesus Christ said: He who gathers not
with Me scatters (Luke 11:23). Not that a good deed can be
called anything but gathering, since even though it is not done
for Christ's sake, yet it is good. Scripture says: In every
nation he who fears God and works righteousness is acceptable
to Him (Acts 10:35). [1]
"As we see from the sacred narrative, the man who works
righteousness is so pleasing to God that the Angel of the Lord
appeared at the hour of prayer to Cornelius, the God-fearing and
righteous centurion, and said: 'Send to Joppa to Simon the Tanner;
there shalt thou find Peter and he will tell thee the words of
eternal life, whereby thou shalt be saved and all thy house.'
Thus the Lord uses all His divine means to give such a man in
return for his good works the opportunity not to lose his reward
in the future life. But to this end we must begin here with a
right faith in our Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of God, Who came
into the world to save sinners and Who, through our acquiring
for ourselves the grace of the Holy Spirit, brings into our hearts
the Kingdom of God and opens the way for us to win the blessings
of the future life. But the acceptability to God of good deeds
not done for Christ's sake is limited to this: the Creator gives
the means to make them living (cp Heb. 6:1). It rests with man
to make them living or not. That is why the Lord said to the Jews:
If you had been blind, you would have no sin. But now you
say, We see, and your sin remains on you (Jn. 9:41). If a
man like Cornelius enjoys the favour of God for his deeds, though
not done for Christ's sake, and then believes in His Son, such
deeds will be imputed to him as done for Christ's sake merely
for faith in Him. But in the opposite event a man has no right
to complain that his good has been no use. It never is, except
when it is done for Christ's sake, since good done for Him not
only merits a crown of righteousness in the world to come, but
also in this present life fills us with the grace of the Holy
Spirit. Moreover, as it is said: God gives not the Spirit
by measure. The Father loves the Son, and has given all things
into His hand. (Jn. 3:34-35).
"That's it, your Godliness [2]. In acquiring this Spirit
of God consists the true aim of our Christian life, while prayer,
vigil, fasting, almsgiving and other good works [3] done for Christ's
sake are merely means for acquiring the Spirit of God."
"What do you mean by acquiring?" I asked Father Seraphim.
"Somehow I don't understand that."
"Acquiring is the same as obtaining," he replied. "You
understand, of course, what acquiring money means? Acquiring the
Spirit of God is exactly the same. You know well enough what it
means in a worldly sense, your Godliness, to acquire. The aim
in life of ordinary worldly people is to acquire or make money,
and for the nobility it is in addition to receive honours, distinctions
and other rewards for their services to the government. The acquisition
of God's Spirit is also capital, but grace-giving and eternal,
and it is obtained in very similar ways, almost the same ways
as monetary, social and temporal capital.
"God the Word, the God-Man, our Lord Jesus Christ, compares
our life with a market, and the work of our life on earth He calls
trading, and says to us all: Trade till I come (Lk. 19:13),
redeeming the time, because the days are evil (Eph. 5:16).
That is to say, make the most of your time for getting heavenly
blessings through earthly goods. Earthly goods are good works
done for Christ's sake and conferring on us the grace of the All-Holy
Spirit.
"In the parable of the wise and foolish virgins, when the
foolish ones lacked oil, it was said: 'Go and buy in the market.'
But when they had bought, the door of the bride-chamber was already
shut and they could not get in. Some say that the lack of oil
in the lamps of the foolish virgins means a lack of good deeds
in their lifetime. Such an interpretation is not quite correct.
Why should they be lacking in good deeds if they are called virgins,
even though foolish ones? Virginity is the supreme virtue, an
angelic state, and it could take the place of all other good works.
"I think that what they were lacking was the grace of the
All-Holy Spirit of God. These virgins practiced the virtues, but
in their spiritual ignorance they supposed that the Christian
life consisted merely in doing good works. By doing a good deed
they thought they were doing the work of God, but they little
cared whether they acquired thereby the grace of God's Spirit.
Such ways of life based merely on doing good without carefully
testing whether they bring the grace of the Spirit of God, are
mentioned in the Patristic books: 'There is another way which
is deemed good at the beginning, but it ends at the bottom of
hell.'
"Antony the Great in his letters to Monks says of such virgins:
'Many Monks and virgins have no idea of the different kinds of
will which act in man, and they do not know that we are influenced
by three wills: the first is God's all-perfect and all-saving
will: the second is our own human will which, if not destructive,
yet neither is it saving; and the third is the devil's willwholly
destructive.' And this third will of the enemy teaches man either
not to do any good deeds, or to do them out of vanity, or to do
them merely for virtue's sake and not for Christ's sake. The second,
our own will, teaches us to do everything to flatter our passions,
or else it teaches us like the enemy to do good for the sake of
good and not care for the grace which is acquired by it. But the
first, God's all-saving will, consists in doing good solely to
acquire the Holy Spirit, as an eternal, inexhaustible treasure
which cannot be rightly valued. The acquisition of the Holy Spirit
is, so to say, the oil which the foolish virgins lacked. They
were called foolish just because they had forgotten the necessary
fruit of virtue, the grace of the Holy Spirit, without which no
one is or can be saved, for: 'Every soul is quickened by the Holy
Spirit and exalted by purity and mystically illumined by the Trinal
Unity.' [4]
"This is the oil in the lamps of the wise virgins which
could burn long and brightly, and these virgins with their burning
lamps were able to meet the Bridegroom, Who came at midnight,
and could enter the bridechamber of joy with Him. But the foolish
ones, though they went to market to buy some oil when they saw
their lamps going out, were unable to return in time, for the
door was already shut. The market is our life; the door of the
bridechamber which was shut and which barred the way to the Bridegroom
is human death; the wise and foolish virgins are Christian souls;
the oil is not good deeds but the grace of the All-Holy Spirit
of God which is obtained through them and which changes souls
from one state to anotherthat is, from corruption to incorruption,
from spiritual death to spiritual life, from darkness to light,
from the stable of our being (where the passions are tied up like
dumb animals and wild beasts) into a Temple of the Divinity, into
the shining bridechamber of eternal joy in Christ Jesus our Lord,
the Creator and Redeemer and eternal Bridegroom of our souls.
"How great is God's compassion to our misery, that is to
say, our inattention to His care for us, when God says: Behold,
I stand at the door and knock (Rev. 3:20), meaning by 'door'
the course of our life which has not yet been closed by death!
Oh, how I wish, your Godliness, that in this life you may always
be in the Spirit of God! 'In whatsoever I find you, in that will
I judge you,' says the Lord. [5]
"Woe to us if He finds us overcharged with the cares and
sorrows of this life! For who will be able to bear His anger,
who will withstand the wrath of His countenance? That is why it
has been said: Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation
(Mk. 14:38), that is lest you be deprived of the Spirit of God,
for watching and prayer bring us His grace.
"Of course, every good deed done for Christ's sake gives
us the grace of the Holy Spirit, but prayer gives us it most of
all, for it is always at hand, so to speak, as an instrument for
acquiring the grace of the Spirit. For instance, you would like
to go to Church, but there is no Church or the Service is over;
you would like to give alms to a beggar, but there isn't one,
or you have nothing to give; you would like to preserve your virginity
[6], but you have not the strength to do so because of your temperament,
or because of the violence of the wiles of the enemy which on
account of your human weakness you cannot withstand; you would
like to do some other good deed for Christ's sake, but either
you have not the strength or the opportunity is lacking. This
certainly does not apply to prayer. Prayer is always possible
for everyone, rich and poor, noble and humble, strong and weak,
healthy and sick, righteous and sinful.
"You may judge how great the power of prayer is even in
a sinful person, when it is offered whole-heartedly, by the following
example from Holy Tradition. When at the request of a desperate
mother who had been deprived by death of her only son, a harlot
whom she chanced to meet, still unclean, from her last sin, and
who was touched by the mother's deep sorrow, cried to the Lord:
'Not for the sake of a wretched sinner like me, but for the sake
of the tears of a mother sorrowing for her son and firmly trusting
in Thy loving kindness and Thy almighty power, Christ God, raise
up her son, O Lord!' And the Lord raised him up.
"You see, your Godliness! Great is the power of prayer,
and it brings most of all the Spirit of God, and is most easily
practiced by everyone. We shall be blessed if the Lord God finds
us watchful and filled with the gifts of His Holy Spirit. Then
we may boldly hope to be caught up...in the clouds to meet
the Lord in the air (I Thes. 4:17) Who is coming with
great power and glory (Mk. 13:26) to judge the living
and the dead (I Pet. 4:5) and to reward every man according
to his works (Mat. 16:27).
"Your Godliness deigns to think it a great happiness to
talk to poor Seraphim, believing that even he is not bereft of
the grace of the Lord. What then shall we say of the Lord Himself,
the never-failing source of every kind of blessing, both heavenly
and earthly? Truly in prayer we are granted to converse with Him,
our all-gracious and life-giving God and Saviour Himself. But
even here we must pray only until God the Holy Spirit descends
on us in measures of His heavenly grace known to Him. And when
He deigns to visit us, we must stop praying. Why should we then
pray to Him, 'Come and abide in us and cleanse us from all impurity
and save our souls, O Good One,' when He has already come to us
to save us who trust in Him and truly call on His Holy Name, that
humbly and with love we may receive Him, the Comforter, in the
mansions of our souls hungering and thirsting for His coming.
"I will explain this to your Godliness by an example. Imagine
that you have invited me to pay you a visit and at your invitation
I come to have a talk with you. But you continue to invite me,
saying: 'Come in, please. Do come in!' Then I should be obliged
to think: 'What is the matter with him? Is he out of his mind?'
So it is with regard to our Lord God the Holy Spirit. That is
why it is said: Be still and realize that I am God; I shall
be exalted among the heathen, I shall be exalted in the earth
(Ps. 45:10). That is, I shall appear and shall continue to appear
to everyone who believes in Me and calls upon Me, and I shall
converse with him as I once conversed with Adam in Paradise, with
Abraham and Jacob and other servants of Mine, with Moses and Job,
and those like them.
"Many explain that this stillness refers only to worldly
matters; in other words, that during prayerful converse with God
you must 'be still' with regard to worldly affairs. But I will
tell you in the name of God that not only is it necessary to be
dead [7] to them at prayer, but when by the omnipotent power of
faith and prayer our Lord God the Holy Spirit condescends to visit
us, and comes to us in the plenitude of His unutterable goodness,
we must be dead to prayer too.
"The soul speaks and converses during prayer, but at the
descent of the Holy Spirit we must remain in complete silence,
in order to hear clearly and intelligibly all the words of eternal
life which He will then deign to communicate. Complete soberness
of both soul and spirit, and chaste purity of body is required
at the same time. The same demands were made at Mount Horeb, when
the Israelites were told not even to touch their wives for three
days before the appearance of God on Mount Sinai. For our God
is a fire which consumes everything unclean, and no one who is
defiled in body or spirit can enter into communion with Him."
"Yes, Father, but what about other good deeds done for Christ's
sake in order to acquire the grace of the Holy Spirit? You have
only been speaking of prayer!"
"Acquire the grace of the Holy Spirit also by practicing
all the other virtues for Christ's sake. Trade spiritually with
them; trade with those which give you the greatest profit. Accumulate
capital from the superabundance of God's grace, deposit it in
God's eternal bank which will bring you immaterial interest, not
four or six percent, but one hundred percent for one spiritual
ruble, and even infinitely more than that. For example, if prayer
and watching give you more of God's grace, watch and pray; if
fasting gives you much of the Spirit of God, fast; if almsgiving
gives you more, give alms. Weigh every virtue done for Christ's
sake in this manner.
"Now I will tell you about myself, poor Seraphim. I come
of a merchant family in Kursk. So when I was not yet in the Monastery
we used to trade with the goods which brought us the greatest
profit. Act like that, my son. And just as in business the main
point is not merely to trade, but to get as much profit as possible,
so in the business of the Christian life the main point is not
merely to pray or to do some other good deed. Though the Apostle
says: Pray without ceasing (I Thess. 5:17), yet, as you
remember, he adds: I would rather speak five words with my
understanding than ten thousand words with the tongue (I
Cor. 14:13). And the Lord says: Not everyone that says unto
Me: Lord, Lord, shall be saved, but he who does the will of My
Father, that is he who does the work of God and, moreover,
does it with reverence, for cursed is he who does the work
of God negligently (Jer. 48:10). And the work of God is:
Believe in God and in Him Whom He has sent, Jesus Christ (Jn.
14:1;6:29). If we understand the commandments of Christ and of
the Apostles aright, our business as Christians consists not in
increasing the number of our good deeds which are only the means
of furthering the purpose of our Christian life, but in deriving
from them the utmost profit, that is in acquiring the most abundant
gifts of the Holy Spirit.
"How I wish, your Godliness, that you yourself may acquire
this inexhaustible source of divine grace, and may always ask
yourself: Am I in the Spirit of God or not? And if you are in
the Spirit, blessed be God!there is nothing to grieve about.
You are ready to appear before the awful judgement of Christ immediately.
For 'In whatsoever I find you, in that I will judge you.' But
if we are not in the Spirit, we must discover why and for what
reason our Lord God the Holy Spirit has willed to abandon us;
and we must seek Him again, and must go on searching until our
Lord God the Holy Spirit has been found and is with us again through
His goodness. And we must attack the enemies that drive us away
from Him until even their dust is no more, as has been said by
the Prophet David: I shall pursue my enemies and overtake
them; and I shall not turn back till they are destroyed. I shall
harass them, and they will not be able to stand; they will fall
under my feet. (Ps. 17:37-38).
"That's it, my son. That is how you must spiritually trade
in virtue. Distribute the Holy Spirit's gifts of grace to those
in need of them, just as a lighted candle burning with earthly
fire shines itself and lights other candles for the illumining
of all in other places, without diminishing its own light. And
if it is so with regard to earthly fire, what shall we say about
the fire of the grace of the All-Holy Spirit of God? For earthly
riches decrease with distribution, but the more the heavenly riches
of God's grace are distributed, the more they increase in him
who distributes them. Thus the Lord Himself was pleased to say
to the Samaritan woman: Whoever drinks of this water will
thirst again. But whoever drinks of the water that I shall give
him will never thirst; but the water that I shall give him will
be in him a well of water springing up into eternal life (Jn.
4:13-14).
"Father," said I, "you speak all the time of the
acquisition of the grace of the Holy Spirit as the aim of the
Christian life. But how and where can I see it? Good deeds are
visible, but can the Holy Spirit be seen? How am I to know whether
He is with me or not?"
"At the present time," the Elder replied, "owing
to our almost universal coldness to our holy faith in our Lord
Jesus Christ, and our inattention to the working of His Divine
Providence in us, and to the communion of man with God, we have
gone so far that, one may say, we have almost abandoned the true
Christian life. The testimonies of Holy Scripture now seem strange
to us, when, for instance, by the lips of Moses the Holy Spirit
says: And Adam saw the Lord walking in paradise (cp. Gen. 3:10),
or when we read the words of the Apostle Paul: 'We went to Achaia,
and the Spirit of God went not with us; we returned to Macedonia,
and the Spirit of God came with us'. More than once in other passages
of Holy Scripture the appearance of God to men is mentioned.
"That is why some people say: 'These passages are incomprehensible.
Is it really possible for people to see God so openly?' But there
is nothing incomprehensible here. This failure to understand has
come about because we have departed from the simplicity of the
original Christian knowledge. Under the pretext of education,
we have reached such a darkness of ignorance that what the ancients
understood so clearly seems to us almost inconceivable. Even in
ordinary conversation, the idea of God's appearance among men
did not seem strange to them. Thus, when his friends rebuked him
for blaspheming God, Job answered them: How can that be when I
feel the Spirit of God in my nostrils? (cp. Job 27:3). That is,
'How can I blaspheme God when the Holy Spirit abides with me?
If I had blasphemed God, the Holy Spirit would have withdrawn
from me; but lo, I feel His breath in my nostrils.'
"In exactly the same way it is said of Abraham and Jacob
that they saw the Lord and conversed with Him, and that Jacob
even wrestled with Him. Moses and all the people with him saw
God when he was granted to receive from God the tables of the
law on Mount Sinai. A pillar of cloud and a pillar of fire, or,
in other words, the evident grace of the Holy Spirit, served as
guides to the people of God in the desert. People saw God and
the grace of His Holy Spirit, not in sleep or in dreams, or in
the excitement of a disordered imagination, but truly and openly.
"We have become so inattentive to the work of our salvation
that we misinterpret many other words in Holy Scripture as well,
all because we do not seek the grace of God and in the pride of
our minds do not allow it to dwell in our souls. That is why we
are without true enlightenment from the Lord, which He sends into
the hearts of men who hunger and thirst wholeheartedly for God's
righteousness.
"Many explain that when it says in the Bible: 'God breathed
the breath of life into the face of Adam the first-created, who
was created by Him from the dust of the ground,' it must mean
that until then there was neither human soul nor spirit in Adam,
but only the flesh created from the dust of the ground. This interpretation
is wrong, for the Lord God created Adam from the dust of the ground
with the constitution which our dear little Father, the holy Apostle
Paul describes: May your spirit and soul and body be preserved
blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ (I Thess.
5:23). And all these three parts of our nature were created from
the dust of the ground, and Adam was not created dead, but an
active living being like all the other animate creatures of God
living on earth. The point is that if the Lord God had not breathed
afterwards into his face this breath of life (that is, the grace
of our Lord God the Holy Spirit Who proceeds from the Father and
rests in the Son and is sent into the world for the Son's sake),
Adam would have remained without having within him the Holy Spirit
Who raises him to Godlike dignity. However perfect he had been
created and superior to all the other creatures of God, as the
crown of creation on earth, he would have been just like all the
other creatures which, though they have a body, soul and spirit
each according to its kind, yet have not the Holy Spirit within
them. But when the Lord God breathed into Adam's face the breath
of life, then, according to Moses' word, Adam became a living
soul (Gen. 2:7), that is, completely and in every way like
God, and, like Him, for ever immortal. Adam was immune to the
action of the elements to such a degree that water could not drown
him, fire could not burn him, the earth could not swallow him
in its abysses, and the air could not harm him by any kind of
action whatever. Everything was subject to him as the beloved
of God, as the king and lord of creation, and everything looked
up to him, as the perfect crown of God's creatures. Adam was made
so wise by this breath of life which was breathed into his face
from the creative lips of God, the Creator and Ruler of all, that
there never has been a man on earth wiser or more intelligent
than he, and it is hardly likely that there ever will be. When
the Lord commanded him to give names to all the creatures, he
gave every creature a name which completely expressed all the
qualities, powers and properties given to it by God at its creation.
"Owing to this very gift of the supernatural grace of God
which was infused into him by the breath of life, Adam could see
and understand the Lord walking in paradise, and comprehend His
words, and the conversation of the holy Angels, and the language
of all beasts, birds and reptiles and all that is now hidden from
us fallen and sinful creatures, but was so clear to Adam before
his fall. To Eve also the Lord God gave the same wisdom, strength
and unlimited power, and all the other good and holy qualities.
And He created her not from the dust of the ground but from Adam's
rib in the Eden of delight, in the Paradise which He had planted
in the midst of the earth.
"In order that they might always easily maintain within
themselves the immortal, divine [8] and perfect properties of
this breath of life, God planted in the midst of the garden the
tree of life and endowed its fruits with all the essence and fullness
of His divine breath. If they had not sinned, Adam and Eve themselves
as well as all their posterity could have always eaten of the
fruit of the tree of life and so would have eternally maintained
the quickening power of divine grace.
"They could have also maintained to all eternity the full
powers of their body, soul and spirit in a state of immortality
and everlasting youth, and they could have continued in this immortal
and blessed state of theirs for ever. At the present time, however,
it is difficult for us even to imagine such grace.
"But when through the tasting of the tree of the knowledge
of good and evilwhich was premature and contrary to the
commandment of Godthey learnt the difference between good
and evil and were subjected to all the afflictions which followed
the transgression of the commandment of God, then they lost this
priceless gift of the grace of the Spirit of God, so that, until
the actual coming into the world of the God-Man Jesus Christ,
the Spirit of God was not yet in the world because
Jesus was not yet glorified (Jn. 7:39).
"However, that does not mean that the Spirit of God was
not in the world at all, but His presence was not so apparent
[9] as in Adam or in us Orthodox Christians. It manifested only
externally; yet the signs of His presence in the world were known
to mankind [10]. Thus, for instance, many mysteries in connection
with the future salvation of the human race were revealed to Adam
as well as to Eve after the fall. And for Cain, in spite of his
impiety and his transgression, it was easy to understand the voice
which held gracious and divine though convicting converse with
him. Noah conversed with God. Abraham saw God and His day and
was glad (cp. Jn. 8:56). The grace of the Holy Spirit acting externally
was also reflected in all the Old Testament prophets and Saints
of Israel. The Hebrews afterwards established special prophetic
schools where the sons of the prophets were taught to discern
the signs of the manifestation of God or of Angels, and to distinguish
the operations of the Holy Spirit from the ordinary natural phenomena
of our graceless earthly life. Simeon who held God in his arms,
Christ's grand-parents Joakim and Anna, and countless other servants
of God continually had quite openly various divine apparitions,
voices and revelations which were justified by evident miraculous
events. Though not with the same power as in the people of God,
nevertheless, the presence of the Spirit of God also acted in
the pagans who did not know the true God, because even among them
God found for Himself chosen people. Such, for instance, were
the virgin-prophetesses called Sibyls who vowed virginity to an
unknown God, but still to God the Creator of the universe, the
all-powerful Ruler of the world, as He was conceived by the pagans.
Though the pagan philosophers also wandered in the darkness of
ignorance of God, yet they sought the truth which is beloved by
God, and on account of this God-pleasing seeking, they could partake
of the Spirit of God, for it is said that the nations who do not
know God practice by nature the demands of the law and do what
is pleasing to God (cp. Rom. 2:14). The Lord so praises truth
that He says of it Himself by the Holy Spirit: Truth has sprung
out of the earth, and righteousness has looked down from heaven
(Ps. 84:11).
"So you see, your Godliness, both in the holy Hebrew people,
a people beloved by God, and in the pagans who did not know God,
there was preserved a knowledge of Godthat is, my son, a
clear and rational comprehension of how our Lord God the Holy
Spirit acts in man, and by means of what inner and outer feelings
one can be sure that this is really the action of our Lord God
the Holy Spirit, and not a delusion of the enemy. That is how
it was from Adam's fall until the coming in the flesh of our Lord
Jesus Christ into the world.
"Without this perceptible realization of the actions of
the Holy Spirit which had always been preserved in human nature,
men could not possibly have known for certain whether the fruit
of the seed of the woman who had been promised to Adam and Eve
had come into the world to bruise the serpent's head (Gen. 3:15).
"At last the Holy Spirit foretold to St. Simeon, who was
then in his 65th year, the mystery of the virginal conception
and birth of Christ from the most pure Ever-Virgin Mary. Afterwards,
having lived by the grace of the All-Holy Spirit of God for three
hundred years, in the 365th year of his life he said openly in
the Temple of the Lord that he knew for certain [11] through the
gift of the Holy Spirit that this was that very Christ, the Saviour
of the world, Whose supernatural conception and birth from the
Holy Spirit had been foretold to him by an Angel three hundred
years previously.
"And there was also Saint Anna, a prophetess, the daughter
of Phanuel, who from her widowhood had served the Lord God in
the Temple of God for eighty years, and who was known to be a
righteous widow, a chaste servant of God, from the special gifts
of grace she had received. She too announced that He was actually
the Messiah Who had been promised to the world, the true Christ,
God and Man, the King of Israel, Who had come to save Adam and
mankind.
"But when our Lord Jesus Christ condescended to accomplish
the whole work of salvation, after His Resurrection, He breathed
on the Apostles, restored the breath of life lost by Adam, and
gave them the same grace of the All-Holy Spirit of God as Adam
had enjoyed. But that was not all. He also told them that it was
expedient for them that He should go to the Father, for if He
did not go, the Spirit of God would not come into the world. But
if He, the Christ, went to the Father, He would send Him into
the world, and He, the Comforter, would guide them and all who
followed their teaching into all truth and would remind them of
all that He had said to them when He was still in the world. What
was then promised was grace upon grace (Jn. 1:16).
"Then on the day of Pentecost He solemnly sent down to them
in a tempestuous wind the Holy Spirit in the form of tongues of
fire which alighted on each of them and entered within them and
filled them with the fiery strength of divine grace which breathes
bedewingly and acts gladdeningly in souls which partake of its
power and operations (Cp. Acts 2:1-4). And this same fire-infusing
grace of the Holy Spirit which is given to us all, the faithful
of Christ, in the Sacrament of Holy Baptism, is sealed by the
Sacrament of Chrismation on the chief parts of our body as appointed
by Holy Church, the eternal keeper of this grace. It is said:
'The seal of the Gift of the Holy Spirit.' On what do we put our
seals, your Godliness, if not on vessels containing some very
precious treasure? But what on earth can be higher and what can
be more precious than the gifts of the Holy Spirit which are sent
down to us from above in the Sacrament of Baptism? This Baptismal
grace is so great and so indispensable, so vital for man, that
even a heretic is not deprived of it until his very death; that
is, till the end of the period appointed on high by the Providence
of God as a life-long test of man on earth, in order to see what
he will be able to achieve (during this period given to him by
God) by means of the power of grace granted him from on high.
"And if we were never to sin after our Baptism, we should
remain for ever Saints of God, holy, blameless and free from all
impurity of body and spirit. But the trouble is that we increase
in stature, but do not increase in grace and in the knowledge
of God as our Lord Jesus Christ increased; but on the contrary,
we gradually become more and more depraved and lose the grace
of the All-Holy Spirit of God and become sinful in various degrees,
and most sinful people. But if a man is stirred by the wisdom
of God which seeks our salvation and embraces everything, and
he is resolved for its sake to devote the early hours to God and
to watch in order to find his eternal salvation [12], then, in
obedience to its voice, he must hasten to offer true repentance
for all his sins and must practice the virtues which are opposite
to the sins committed. Then through the virtues practiced for
Christ's sake he will acquire the Holy Spirit Who acts within
us and establishes in us the Kingdom of God. The word of God does
not say in vain: The Kingdom of God is within you (Lk.
17:21), and it suffers violence, and the violent take it by
force (Mat. 11:12) [13]. That means that people who, in spite
of the bonds of sin which fetter them and (by their violence and
by inciting them to new sins) prevent them from coming to Him,
our Saviour, with perfect repentance for reckoning with Him, yet
force themselves to break their bonds, despising all the strength
of the fetters of sinsuch people at last actually appear
before the face of God made whiter than snow by His grace. Come,
says the Lord: Though your sins be as purple, I will make them
white as snow (Is. 1:18).
"Such people were once seen by the holy Seer John the Divine
clothed in white robes (that is, in robes of justification)
and palms in their hands (as a sign of victory), and
they were singing to God a wonderful song: Alleluia.
And no one could imitate the beauty of their song. Of them an
Angel of God said: These are they who have come out of great
tribulation and have washed their robes, and have made them white
in the blood of the Lamb (Rev. 7:9-14). They were washed
with their sufferings and made white in the Communion of the immaculate
and life-giving Mysteries of the Body and Blood of the most pure
and spotless LambChristWho was slain before all ages
by His own will for the salvation of the world and Who is continually
being slain and divided until now but is never exhausted. Through
the Holy Mysteries we are granted our eternal and unfailing salvation
as a viaticum to eternal life, as an acceptable answer at His
awful judgement and as a precious substitute beyond our comprehension
for that fruit of the tree of life of which the enemy of mankind
Lucifer who fell from heaven would have liked to deprive our human
race. Though the enemy and devil seduced Eve, and Adam fell with
her, yet the Lord not only granted them a Redeemer in the fruit
of the seed of the woman Who trampled down death by death, but
also granted us all in the woman, the Ever-Virgin Mary Mother
of God, who crushes the head of the serpent in herself and in
all the human race, a constant mediatress with her Son and our
God, and an invincible and insistent intercessor even for the
most desperate sinners. That is why the Mother of God is called
the 'Plague of Demons,' for it is not possible for a devil to
destroy a man so long as the man himself has recourse to the help
of the Mother of God.
"And I must further explain, your Godliness, the difference
between the operations of the Holy Spirit who dwells mystically
in the hearts of those who believe in our Lord God and Saviour
Jesus Christ and the operations of the darkness of sin which,
at the suggestion and instigation of the devil, acts predatorily
in us. The Spirit of God reminds us of the words of our Lord Jesus
Christ and always acts triumphantly with Him, gladdening our hearts
and guiding our steps into the way of peace, while the false diabolic
spirit reasons in the opposite way to Christ, and its actions
in us are rebellious, stubborn, and full of the lust of the flesh,
the lust of the eyes and the pride of life.
"And whoever lives and believes in Me shall not die
for ever (Jn. 11:26). He who has the grace of the Holy Spirit
in reward for right faith in Christ, even if on account of human
frailty his soul were to die from some sin or other, yet he will
not die for ever, but he will be raised by the grace of our Lord
Jesus Christ Who takes away the sin of the world (Jn.
1:29) and freely gives grace upon grace. Of this grace, which
was manifested to the whole world and to our human race by the
God-Man, it is said in the Gospel: In Him was life, and the
life was the light of men (Jn. 1:4); and further: And
the light shines in the darkness; and the darkness did not overpower
it (Jn. 1:5). This means that the grace of the Holy Spirit
which is granted at Baptism in the name of the Father and the
Son and the Holy Spirit, in spite of men's falls into sin, in
spite of the darkness surrounding our soul, nevertheless shines
in the heart with the divine light (which has existed from time
immemorial) of the inestimable merits of Christ. In the event
of a sinner's impenitence this light of Christ cries to the Father:
'Abba, Father! Be not angry with this impenitence to the end (of
his life)'. And then, at the sinner's conversion to the way of
repentance, it effaces completely all trace of past sin and clothes
the former sinner once more in a robe of incorruption woven from
the grace of the Holy Spirit, concerning the acquisition of which,
as the aim of the Christian life, I have been speaking so long
to your Godliness.
"I will tell you something else, so that you may understand
still more clearly what is meant by the grace of God, how to recognize
it and how its action is manifested particularly in those who
are enlightened by it. The grace of the Holy Spirit is the light
which enlightens man. The whole of Sacred Scripture speaks about
this. Thus our holy Father David said: Thy word is a lamp
to my feet, and a light to my path (Ps. 118:105), and: Unless
Thy law had been my meditation I should have died in my humiliation
(Ps. 118:92). In other words, the grace of the Holy Spirit
which is expressed in the Law by the words of the Lord's commandments
is my lamp and light. And if this grace of the Holy Spirit (which
I try to acquire so carefully and zealously that I meditate on
Thy righteous judgements seven times a day) did not enlighten
me amidst the darkness of the cares which are inseparable from
the high calling of my royal rank, whence should I get a spark
of light to illumine my way on the path of life which is darkened
by the ill-will of my enemies?
"And in fact the Lord has frequently demonstrated before
many witnesses how the grace of the Holy Spirit acts on people
whom He has sanctified and illumined by His great inspiration
[14]. Remember Moses after his talk with God on Mount Sinai. He
so shone with an extraordinary light that people were unable to
look at him. He was even forced to wear a veil when he appeared
in public. Remember the Transfiguration of the Lord on Mount Tabor.
A great light encircled Him, and His raiment became shining,
exceedingly white like snow (Mk. 9:3), and His disciples
fell on their faces from fear. But when Moses and Elias appeared
to Him in that light, a cloud overshadowed them in order to hide
the radiance of the light of the divine grace which blinded the
eyes of the disciples. Thus the grace of the All-Holy Spirit of
God appears in an ineffable light to all to whom God reveals its
action."
"But how," I asked Father Seraphim, "can I know
that I am in the grace of the Holy Spirit?"
"It is very simple, your Godliness," he replied. "That
is why the Lord says: 'All things are simple to those who
find knowledge' (Prov. 8:9, Septuagint). The trouble
is that we do not seek this divine knowledge which does not puff
up, for it is not of this world. This knowledge which is full
of love for God and for our neighbour builds up every man for
his salvation. Of this knowledge the Lord said that God wills
all men to be saved, and to come to the knowledge of the truth
(I Tim. 2:4). And of the lack of this knowledge He said to
His Apostles: Are you also yet without understanding (Mat.
15:16)? Concerning this understanding [15], it is said in the
Gospel of the Apostles: Then opened He their understanding
(Lk. 24:45), and the Apostles always perceived whether the
Spirit of God was dwelling in them or not; and being filled with
understanding, they saw the presence of the Holy Spirit with them
and declared positively that their work was holy and entirely
pleasing to the Lord God. That explains why in their Epistles
they wrote: It seemed good to the Holy Spirit and to us (Acts
15:28). Only on these grounds did they offer their Epistles as
immutable truth for the benefit of all the faithful. Thus the
holy Apostles were consciously aware of the presence in themselves
of the Spirit of God. And so you see, your Godliness, how simple
it is!"
"Nevertheless," I replied, "I do not understand
how I can be certain that I am in the Spirit of God. How can I
discern for myself His true manifestation in me?"
Father Seraphim replied: "I have already told you, your
Godliness, that it is very simple and I have related in detail
how people come to be in the Spirit of God and how we can recognize
His presence in us. So what do you want, my son?"
"I want to understand it well," I said.
Then Father Seraphim took me very firmly by the shoulders and
said: "We are both in the Spirit of God now, my son. Why
don't you look at me?"
I replied: "I cannot look, Father, because your eyes are
flashing like lightning. Your face has become brighter than the
sun, and my eyes ache with pain."
Father Seraphim said: "Don't be alarmed, your Godliness!
Now you yourself have become as bright as I am. You are now in
the fullness of the Spirit of God yourself; otherwise you would
not be able to see me as I am."
Then, bending his head towards me, he whispered softly in my
ear: "Thank the Lord God for His unutterable mercy to us!
You saw that I did not even cross myself; and only in my heart
I prayed mentally to the Lord God and said within myself: 'Lord,
grant him to see clearly with his bodily eyes that descent of
Thy Spirit which Thou grantest to Thy servants when Thou art pleased
to appear in the light of Thy magnificent glory.' And you see,
my son, the Lord instantly fulfilled the humble prayer of poor
Seraphim. How then shall we not thank Him for this unspeakable
gift to us both? Even to the greatest hermits, my son, the Lord
God does not always show His mercy in this way. This grace of
God, like a loving mother, has been pleased to comfort your contrite
heart at the intercession of the Mother of God herself. But why,
my son, do you not look me in the eyes? Just look, and don't be
afraid! The Lord is with us!"
After these words I glanced at his face and there came over me
an even greater reverent awe. Imagine in the center of the sun,
in the dazzling light of its midday rays, the face of a man talking
to you. You see the movement of his lips and the changing expression
of his eyes, you hear his voice, you feel someone holding your
shoulders; yet you do not see his hands, you do not even see yourself
or his figure, but only a blinding light spreading far around
for several yards and illumining with its glaring sheen both the
snow-blanket which covered the forest glade and the snow-flakes
which besprinkled me and the great Elder. You can imagine the
state I was in!
"How do you feel now?" Father Seraphim asked me.
"Extraordinarily well," I said.
"But in what way? How exactly do you feel well?"
I answered: "I feel such calmness and peace in my soul that
no words can express it."
"This, your Godliness," said Father Seraphim, "is
that peace of which the Lord said to His disciples: My peace
I give unto you; not as the world gives, give I unto you (Jn.
14:21). If you were of the world, the world would love its
own; but because I have chosen you out of the world, therefore
the world hates you (Jn. 15:19). But be of good cheer;
I have overcome the world (Jn. 16:33). And to those people
whom this world hates but who are chosen by the Lord, the Lord
gives that peace which you now feel within you, the peace which,
in the words of the Apostle, passes all understanding (Phil.
4:7). The Apostle describes it in this way, because it is impossible
to express in words the spiritual well-being which it produces
in those into whose hearts the Lord God has infused it. Christ
the Saviour calls it a peace which comes from His own generosity
and is not of this world, for no temporary earthly prosperity
can give it to the human heart; it is granted from on high by
the Lord God Himself, and that is why it is called the peace of
God. What else do you feel?" Father Seraphim asked me.
"An extraordinary sweetness," I replied.
And he continued: "This is that sweetness of which it is
said in Holy Scripture: They will be inebriated with the fatness
of Thy house; and Thou shalt make them drink of the torrent of
Thy delight (Ps. 35:8) [16]. And now this sweetness is flooding
our hearts and coursing through our veins with unutterable delight.
From this sweetness our hearts melt as it were, and both of us
are filled with such happiness as tongue cannot tell. What else
do you feel?"
"An extraordinary joy in all my heart."
And Father Seraphim continued: "When the Spirit of God comes
down to man and overshadows him with the fullness of His inspiration
[17], then the human soul overflows with unspeakable joy, for
the Spirit of God fills with joy whatever He touches. This is
that joy of which the Lord speaks in His Gospel: A woman when
she is in travail has sorrow, because her hour is come; but when
she is delivered of the child, she remembers no more the anguish,
for joy that a man is born into the world. In the world you will
be sorrowful [18]; but when I see you again, your heart
shall rejoice, and your joy no one will take from you (Jn.
16:21-22). Yet however comforting may be this joy which you now
feel in your heart, it is nothing in comparison with that of which
the Lord Himself by the mouth of His Apostle said that that joy
eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor has it entered into the
heart of man what God has prepared for them that love Him (I
Cor. 2:9). Foretastes of that joy are given to us now, and if
they fill our souls with such sweetness, well-being and happiness,
what shall we say of that joy which has been prepared in heaven
for those who weep here on earth? And you, my son, have wept enough
in your life on earth; yet see with what joy the Lord consoles
you even in this life! Now it is up to us, my son, to add labours
to labours in order to go from strength to strength (Ps.
83:7), and to come to the measure of the stature of the fullness
of Christ (Eph. 4:13), so that the words of the Lord may
be fulfilled in us: But they that wait upon the Lord shall
renew their strength; they shall grow wings like eagles; and they
shall run and not be weary (Is. 40:31); they will go
from strength to strength, and the God of gods will appear to
them in the Sion (Ps. 83:8) of realization and heavenly visions.
Only then will our present joy (which now visits us little and
briefly) appear in all its fullness, and no one will take it from
us, for we shall be filled to overflowing with inexplicable heavenly
delights. What else do you feel, your Godliness?"
I answered: "An extraordinary warmth."
"How can you feel warmth, my son? Look, we are sitting in
the forest. It is winter out-of-doors, and snow is underfoot.
There is more than an inch of snow on us, and the snowflakes are
still falling. What warmth can there be?"
I answered: "Such as there is in a bath-house when the water
is poured on the stone and the steam rises in clouds."
"And the smell?" he asked me. "Is it the same
as in the bath-house?"
"No," I replied. "There is nothing on earth like
this fragrance. When in my dear mother's lifetime I was fond of
dancing and used to go to balls and parties, my mother would sprinkle
me with scent which she bought at the best shops in Kazan. But
those scents did not exhale such fragrance."
And Father Seraphim, smiling pleasantly, said: "I know it
myself just as well as you do, my son, but I am asking you on
purpose to see whether you feel it in the same way. It is absolutely
true, your Godliness! The sweetest earthly fragrance cannot be
compared with the fragrance which we now feel, for we are now
enveloped in the fragrance of the Holy Spirit of God. What on
earth can be like it? Mark, your Godliness, you have told me that
around us it is warm as in a bath-house; but look, neither on
you nor on me does the snow melt, nor does it underfoot; therefore,
this warmth is not in the air but in us. It is that very warmth
about which the Holy Spirit in the words of prayer makes us cry
to the Lord: 'Warm me with the warmth of Thy Holy Spirit!' By
it the hermits of both sexes were kept warm and did not fear the
winter frost, being clad, as in fur coats, in the grace-given
clothing woven by the Holy Spirit. And so it must be in actual
fact, for the grace of God must dwell within us, in our heart,
because the Lord said: The Kingdom of God is within you (Lk.
17:21). By the Kingdom of God the Lord meant the grace of the
Holy Spirit. This Kingdom of God is now within us, and the grace
of the Holy Spirit shines upon us and warms us from without as
well. It fills the surrounding air with many fragrant odours,
sweetens our senses with heavenly delight and floods our hearts
with unutterable joy. Our present state is that of which the Apostle
says; The Kingdom of God is not food and drink, but righteousness
and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit (Rom. 14:17). Our faith
consists not in the plausible words of earthly wisdom, but in
the demonstration of the Spirit and power (cp. I Cor.2:4). That
is just the state that we are in now. Of this state the Lord said:
There are some of those standing here who shall not taste
of death till they see the Kingdom of God come in power (Mk.
9:1). See, my son, what unspeakable joy the Lord God has now granted
us! This is what it means to be in the fullness of the Holy Spirit,
about which St. Macarius of Egypt writes: 'I myself was in the
fullness of the Holy Spirit.' With this fullness of His Holy Spirit
the Lord has now filled us poor creatures to overflowing. So there
is no need now, your Godliness, to ask how people come to be in
the grace of the Holy Spirit. Will you remember this manifestation
of God's ineffable mercy which has visited us?"
"I don't know, Father," I said, "whether the Lord
will grant me to remember this mercy of God always as vividly
and clearly as I feel it now."
"I think," Father Seraphim answered me, "that
the Lord will help you to retain it in your memory forever, or
His goodness would never have instantly bowed in this way to my
humble prayer and so quickly anticipated the request of poor Seraphim;
all the more so, because it is not given to you alone to understand
it, but through you it is for the whole world, in order that you
yourself may be confirmed in God's work and may be useful to others.
The fact that I am a Monk and you are a layman is utterly beside
the point. What God requires is true faith in Himself and His
Only-begotten Son. In return for that the grace of the Holy Spirit
is granted abundantly from on high. The Lord seeks a heart filled
to overflowing with love for God and our neighbour; this is the
throne on which He loves to sit and on which He appears in the
fullness of His heavenly glory. 'Son, give Me thy heart,' He says,
'and all the rest I Myself will add to thee (Prov. 23:26; Matt.
6:33),' for in the human heart the Kingdom of God can be contained.
The Lord commanded His disciples: Seek first the Kingdom of
God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added
to you; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these
things (Mat. 6:32,33). The Lord does not rebuke us for using
earthly goods, for He says Himself that, owing to the conditions
of our earthly life, we need all these things; that is, all the
things which make our human life more peaceful and make our way
to our heavenly home lighter and easier. That is why the holy
Apostle Paul said that in his opinion there was nothing better
on earth than piety and sufficiency (cp. II Cor.9:8; I Tim.6:6).
And Holy Church prays that this may be granted us by the Lord
God; and though troubles, misfortunes and various needs are inseparable
from our life on earth, yet the Lord God neither willed nor wills
that we should have nothing but troubles and adversities. Therefore,
He commands us through the Apostles to bear one another's
burdens and so fulfill the law of Christ (Gal. 6:2). The
Lord Jesus personally gives us the commandment to love one another,
so that, by consoling one another with mutual love, we may lighten
the sorrowful and narrow way of our journey to the heavenly country.
Why did He descend to us from heaven, if not for the purpose of
taking upon Himself our poverty and of making us rich with the
riches of His goodness and His unutterable generosity? He did
not come to be served by men but to serve them Himself and to
give His life for the salvation of many. You do the same, your
Godliness, and having seen the mercy of God manifestly shown to
you, tell of it to all who desire salvation. The harvest truly
is great, says the Lord, but the labourers are few (Lk. 10:2).
The Lord God has led us out to work and has given us the gifts
of